Miss Mary Mac All Dressed In Black

Early morning blogs when you have had no sleep are never good. They make no sense and are just plain horrible to read. I took it down luckily I remembered I had written it.
sadness.
~Lady of the Tide Pool

Nerd Rage

I entered the arena tourney on world of warcraft. Still figuring some stuff out. Like what the flying %^&* I am doing. I play a Disc Priest. Which is the most awesome thing ever. I just don't understand why someone would waste 20 dollars signing up for it just to suck it up completely?
I could basically roll my face across my keyboard and still beat some of these people.I met a rogue today who gemmed resil. even though we were all given plenty. If as a healer I didn't need more resil neither did he. He also had stam and basically I stood there and let him kill himself on my shield. He was nice but his partner was mean so I helped him and told him to leave his partner.
I am evil yes. But I haven't been down right mean to anyone except his mage partner who told me that his rogue sucked but I was good. So I told him that I knew I was good and that he sucked but I would help his partner.
That is the end of my rant. I realize that if you haven't wasted your life on wow this went over your head and good for you. You have a life and I envy you.
~Lady of The Tide Pool

Cuddling and Spoons

I am making homemade mushroom soup with tomato bacon pesto mozzarella tomato sandwiches. Yikes. I am so sleepy I don't know what to do. I forgot to mention the homemade croutons. Blah this post is sooo boring. I mean I am going to fall asleep. I wouldn't blame you if you did too. Wanna cuddle? Can I be the inside spoon?
~Lady of The Tide Pool

Omnipotent Beings And Wonder Balls

Okay, this struck me as kinda sad. I was browsing blogs (I have nothing against Christians, well the ones without racism and hate crimes.) and I came across this blog that was rather boastful and arrogant. I was looking at this self righteous crap and saying "Wow, what is this guys malfunction?" Then I looked at his profile statement. Instead of describing himself in this statement or even explaining the nature of his blog it said, "God loves me." Which isn't a bad thing for a christian to believe that their god loves them. Not at all. What struck me was the self righteous nature of the blog and the fact that he only identified himself not as a unique person but by the love of his god. It seemed like he was using that statement to somehow justify his blog.
So I have something to say to those who believe that their identity is based solely off of gods love and even more to say to those who use it as a weapon against others. According to your own religion Christians your god loves everyone (according to my religion too but that is another days topic). He made each person unique. So if you identify yourself most proudly based on your gods love not only are you breaking a deadly sin (Pride) you aren't being the unique person your god supposedly intended you to be. (I only say supposedly because while well versed in the Christian religion, I am not one.) Not all people who believe their god loves them are breaking a deadly sin. I am just saying that playing by your own rules you shouldn't use your gods love for you as a weapon. Don't identify yourself based only on that love, know it is there and be yourself. Because you must know who you are on your own and love yourself before another can love you. I will say it again god made you unique for a reason, don't be a lemming and use an omnipotent beings love as a weapon. I don't think he would like that much...
In other news remember Wonder Balls the candy? That song just popped into my head. I don't think they make them anymore. My mom would never let me have them when we went to the store. They were kind of expensive and when I got a little older and got one on my own they were kind of gross. A chocolate ball which when broken has fruity candy inside and it wasn't good candy. The song was horrible so I am kind of upset it is in my head just stuck there...lingering...haunting...annoying...tears.

~Lady of The Tide Pool

Crazy Dreams, Crazy Things, And States I Won't Go To

I tend to wake up in the middle of the night and hallucinate. Especially if I have taken a sleeping pill. Normally its spiders and Eric has to cuddle me until I fall back asleep because I truly will not fall asleep any other way since we found that huge deep black spider with the bulbous butt on the bottom level entry hall thing. Since then I have seen spiders dropping from the ceiling, crawling on the bed, and have thought they were crawling on me to the point where you would think I had done some sort of drug, but no I just get terrified.
A few times I have shouted at Eric to go check the house because I have seen men in the room. Like seriously seen them. Before you think I am all crazy its just in the two seconds I open my eyes after sleeping. Its a common side effect of my sleeping pills which is why I would rather get one of my unhealthy spurts of staying up for two days straight than take one.
This all comes along because my brother was making noise in the front room last night and I woke up and could have sworn there was someone crawling through my bedroom window. Okay so my bedroom window is on the top floor,but there is a balcony someone could theoretically climb up and get in. Not really but that is the way my brain works at four am when I have just woken up.
Luckily I am not paranoid. LOL. The actual definition of paranoia my doctor tells me is when you think that the world is out to get you specifically. Like the world has a vendetta against you and is plotting your downfall.
My fears aren't necessarily based around me they are based around calculations, and rationalizations to an extent. Or so I am told. I rationalize my way into fear which my old doctor used to think was interesting. Statistics and such are my world when it comes to stuff like that and I would rather be safe than sorry. There is an irrational side to my rationalization however. There are entire states I will NOT go to based off horror movies having taken place there. And I don't mean circumstantial horror movies like the Exorcist. In that movie those people were in trouble not because of their environment. I mean things like the movie "Decent" and "Texas Chainsaw Massacre". I have yet to see a horror movie placed in Utah, Nebraska, or Nevada but I am still very wary of those states. I have been and let me tell you they are no good. Anyway while I am scared based of "Environmental Horror Movie States" I am not that silly. I will go to Texas if need be. Just don't ask me to put myself in the same position the people in the movie did. I will not go on a road trip through the back of Texas and pick up a hitchhiker, and further more there is no way in hell you are getting me to go spelunking in Tennessee. So there is my crazy blog. About pure craziness, with a side of crazy.

~Lady of The Tide Pool

Pancakes An Impostor

One of my friends said something weird about pancakes. Now I am thinking and reflecting on how pancakes are disgusting in the first place but even more so now. Pancakes are not cake people! They just aren't no amount of imagining or pleading (I don't know why you would plead but to each their own) will make them cake. They are dry nearly sugarless, floppy, and did I mention dry? Blah. I take issue with pancakes because they call themselves cake...but they are not... Okay I just got a text and things got weirder... lets start in on butter on pancakes just because yeah no thanks. Butter does not stay on a pancake where it should no it runs off the side. Stay where you are put butter! And more importantly you are too good for pancakes! I don't want pancakes anywhere near me.
Ooo I forgot.. Silver dollar pancakes are the worst!!! They normally are like a sandwich sort of thing. Well decided cake IMPOSTOR are you pretending to be a sandwich or a cake?
In other news reading Sookie Stackhouse - Club Dead
And I just remembered I got my Audible points today!

~Lady of The Tide Pool

The Pain That Is Junk Food.

I just ate too many Doritos. I don't know why. I hate the things. But I did. Despite being on a new med that is a weight loss, anti depressant and migraine suppressant all in one. Talk about your miracle pill. I have all three problems at the moment and its just wonderful that the pharmaceutical companies had me in mind. Any way its a step up slowly med so I can't expect it to work the first day I took it.
My mom bought my brother Doritos and I don't allow junk food in my house but she is insistent he eat the stuff and that I keep it here while I watch him. Big mistake. Grawer! I didn't eat that many really. One is too many. They give me headaches. The doctors say something to do with MSG...or some chem.
Let me just say that the dollar store is a beautiful thing. Really it is. I got all sorts of stuff. They just opened it in the new shopping center. Which is a little weird. Right next to an Italian restaurant which is nowhere near a dollar. Weird things.
Yoga today wiped me out. And I seem to be the next wonder of the universe because my yoga instructors all think its extremely interesting that my arms pop out of socket. The instructor modified the moves for me then he told me he had something for me next class. Can I just say scary... No really. I don't dig the sound of that one. And with that scary thought I leave you.

Of Books and Fetishes

New books! I am so excited. I have two new books on my kindle bringing my total up to...35 kindle books. That is just on the kindle since Christmas. I have gotten other hard copies for my library. Which I am proud to say now fills the entire room wall to wall with shelves full of books and I still have to put a ton under the stairs and in the garage. The reason I have so many books is I read everything. Mostly Young Adult Fiction because that is what I am writing about but I read about everything I am interested in, and some things I am just mildly interested in. Meaning I have a ton of odd books...
So when people see my library and they skim over the books they normally turn and give me a shocked look and say "You're really into plushies?"
Then I have to back peddle and explain that there were no good books released that week and I had everything else that interested me at the time. SO VERY KIDDING. I am more of a handcuffs girl...I really hope my mother doesn't read this blog. *Sigh* Funny but true so I am leaving it up. (Not the plushie part I really don't have any books on that one. Plenty of other head turning books but alas I still need to add plushies.) Okay so this blog isn't for family members period. I do amuse myself which is why I'm not deleting anything. As long as I laugh right?
Moving on to safer subjects...I would have to say I have over 3k in books. The reason for this is because I would
go to the bookstore when I worked and blow all my money on books of every kind. Quite a collection over the years and now Eric buys me kindle and hard copy books a lot. I don't throw books away, I only lend them out... then I forget that I have lent them and think I lost them. So the day after I had wanted to read the book and couldn't find it, I buy another copy leaving me with two copies when the book is returned to me. Books make me happy. *Smiles*

~Lady of The Tide Pool

P.S. Recap the teddy bear in my closet was just a gift I haven't thrown away. I swear! The handcuffs on the nightstand...

4 Wheeling Babies.

So...I haven't written in a few days. I had to let that male yoga thing set in. Today was go go go go all day. First heated yoga. Then hiking up the canyon. Then coffee with Siena. Finally Jackson's first birthday party. I got him a sock monkey which he promptly stuck in his mouth. My dad got him a plastic baby 4 wheeler. He got his foot stuck under the wheel while he was trying to push it and fell off it with the 4 wheeler landing on top of him. Sooo sad.
In other news my new shampoo makes my hair smell like jasmine or I think that's what it is. Doesn't matter smells good anyway.
I've got nothing...
~Lady of The Tide Pool

P.S. BUBBLES!

Stop Male Nude Yoga Forever!

Finally yoga. So excited. I am also thinking of going someplace to take hot yoga. Though the place nearby has male nude heated yoga...um yeah about that. No way in hell am I going near that. Think of the trauma that would ensue if you accidentally went into the wrong classroom. Nm don't think of it, it hurts.
I am thinking of protesting outside the yoga building to make them stop male nude yoga. Yes I am going to protest to stop men from expressing themselves and finding bliss through doing yoga nude. All so that I can feel comfortable and not drive further for hot yoga. What can I say... I am a bitch. Ask me if I care. Okay so I care and that is mean, but god damn it if I will let those peace loving bullies make me drive ten more blocks. How are they being bullies you ask? By doing yoga nude! Trauma! Maybe I could buy them speedos and they would be appeased. Though that is traumatic as well. Maybe even more so. Speedos are a sin guys! Just so you are aware. A mortal sin...do it and you go straight to hell for inflicting pain on those around you. And god won't forgive you. The priest may... may even ask for your number, but god knows.
~Lady of the Tide Pool

P.S. I've opened posts to everyone so post what you think of this or sign my online pretend petition. Though if you have something mean to say to you I say this...GO PUT ON YOUR SPEEDO AND STOP LUNGING IN FRONT OF PEOPLE!

P.P.S. I am just kidding if you want to wear a speedo or do yoga nude still creepy but not wrong. Know this though you are a guy and not the prettier sex of the species...

P.P.P.S. Okay I am sexist... *Hangs Head* I just can't think of one nice thing to say. lol.

The Art of Being Very Annoyed.

I got a confirmation that my yoga stuff shipped. Still nothing on the classes. I am giving them until 12:17 to get back to me. So roughly when I am done writing this blog. Being annoyed isn't hard but being annoyed artfully is. You must think of ways to release your annoyance. Mine are A. Yelling at hippies. B. Throwing yoga blocks. C. Hanging myself with the yoga stretch bands.
I am kidding so don't get all huffy call me to check if I really did hang myself with a yoga band. I wouldn't answer anyway. lol

~Lady of The Tide Pool

Dpsing The Zen Factor

So here we are at 6 pm Mountain Time. Still no yoga. I called the place 4 times today because each time they told me to call back in one to two hours. Here I am naive thinking that they would actually have a solution. So I verbally dps'd their manager and he looked to see if he could speed things along. Their computer hadn't caught up yet so the answer was no. I wish they would have told me it would take 24 hours because I would have done something today instead of sitting around waiting to hear from them and foolishly hoping I would be able to start today.
Netflix has some good yoga videos by the way. So after you are done yelling at the Boulder Yoga Hippies you can calm down. Wow is that funny but that is exactly what I did today. I am zen now no thanks to Gaiam.
Beer Shrimp Boil tonight for dinner. The recipe I have is awesome. The beer takes all the fishiness out of the shrimp. Still seafood but just slightly less...Fishy i guess.
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BACON!

Painting is oddly satisfying. I don't know why but painting this piggy bank for a hour was relaxing.

Flamingos and Other Pink Birds

Why am I up this late you ask? I have no flipping clue. While I am up I might as well make a futile attempt at entertaining you all. Yeah so about that...
Project Domestic Goddess is off to a rocking start. And by rocking I mean rocking my living room with clutter. I have torn everything apart so as to put it together the "Right" way. I want a maid already.
Edited the layout of my blog. Not sure if I like it. Oh well.
Okay well I am actually sleepy now. It sort of snuck up on me. So I am done moderately entertaining you. You must stop being lazy and find something that is actually entertaining to do. Because alas my blog is not that thing.
Night
~Lady of The Tide Pool

April 4th 2010 - 1:30 AM

Project Domestic Goddess.

I have come up with a project for myself. Kinda funny actually. I have decided to take the concept of the movie "Julie and Julia" and apply it to something else. So I have decided I am going do every project in "Martha Stewart's Homekeeping Handbook" A nice five pound book with 743 pages in tiny print. I know its funny seeing as the only cleaning I do is cleaning out my inventory on my character in WoW. Even then I find better things to do. So I am going to do every project in the book and follow her cleaning lists for a year. Following her care instructions on everything.
Which brings me to my first project. The counter top which was interesting because I was doing it wrong the whole time. I was using things that were too abrasive and scrubbing. Blah.
Well wish me luck....I'll need it.

Julie and Julia

I love this movie. Its about cooking something I do on a daily basis from scratch. She blogs about going through an entire cookbook in a year. Doing each recipe once. Pretty sweet. I would do that but I would have to find a worthwhile cookbook. Any suggestions? Its been done yes but fun... I'm sure. I love Meryl Streep.

Subway and Other Methods of Transportation

Bored right now. Trying to write but alas my medication has worn off and my attention scatters. Eric is bringing home Subway for lunch. Yum. Spicy Italian Sangwitch. Yes, I said Sangwich. That is what they are called god damn it!
Eric took his own car to work today which was odd because mine is so much cooler... and messier and out of gas at the moment. Damn him with his stupid shiny blue gray pretty car. Not that mines not pretty its better than most of the trash on the roads these days. Shiny and red.
I have my car for once and I don't know what to do or where to go. Thinking about getting a hair cut. I may do that today. I'm going to chop it all off. Not really I'm thinking instead of having it so long I rarely curl it, I may go about an inch under my shoulders. Still long but not "Climb up my hair and rescue me long."
That's about it. People better show up for raid tonight or feel the wrath! What am I saying its Tuesday. People will show only to find that if they didn't show Friday or Sunday I have replaced them. And I have stopped taking fail so that leaves us recruiting. Hehe. My plan is to take 10 keep 1-2. I know its a little drastic but I'm sick of suck. Enough to weed out the crap. Epic failure is not an option anymore.
That is my rant.
~Lady of the Tide Pool

Tablets of Biblical Proportions

Yay! I'm getting a Tablet! Our friend Mike is using me as an excuse to get a new one. Since he is a graphic designer I asked him to help me pick one out for cheap. While looking at them for me he started to want a new one. He is a professional he needs a nice expensive one. So he decided I was the perfect excuse to get himself a new one. Since he's getting said new tablet he is giving me his old professional grade one. It still runs for around three hundred dollars. I'm paying 50 for it. I'm so lucky that way beats the seventy five dollar causal artist ones I was looking at. For those of you who don't know a tablet is a digital drawing board. You draw on it and it shows up on your computer. Its best used with expensive programs like Painter 11, PhotoshopCS 4 and more. I have recently come across said programs and he has copies of other cool programs like Manga Studio EX 4. I'm not a huge manga fan but it will help me with my drawing of people.

<3 Lady of the Tide Pool

Song of the Day: I Get It by Chevelle

Broken Love

My favorite poem ever! I read it for the first time when I was 15. I just now remembered it.

Broken Love

MY Spectre around me night and day
Like a wild beast guards my way;
My Emanation far within
Weeps incessantly for my sin.

‘A fathomless and boundless deep,
There we wander, there we weep;
On the hungry craving wind
My Spectre follows thee behind.

‘He scents thy footsteps in the snow
Wheresoever thou dost go,
Thro’ the wintry hail and rain.
When wilt thou return again?

’Dost thou not in pride and scorn
Fill with tempests all my morn,
And with jealousies and fears
Fill my pleasant nights with tears?

‘Seven of my sweet loves thy knife
Has bereavèd of their life.
Their marble tombs I built with tears,
And with cold and shuddering fears.

‘Seven more loves weep night and day
Round the tombs where my loves lay,
And seven more loves attend each night
Around my couch with torches bright.

‘And seven more loves in my bed
Crown with wine my mournful head,
Pitying and forgiving all
Thy transgressions great and small.

‘When wilt thou return and view
My loves, and them to life renew?
When wilt thou return and live?
When wilt thou pity as I forgive?’

‘O’er my sins thou sit and moan:
Hast thou no sins of thy own?
O’er my sins thou sit and weep,
And lull thy own sins fast asleep.

‘What transgressions I commit
Are for thy transgressions fit.
They thy harlots, thou their slave;
And my bed becomes their grave.

‘Never, never, I return:
Still for victory I burn.
Living, thee alone I’ll have;
And when dead I’ll be thy grave.

‘Thro’ the Heaven and Earth and Hell
Thou shalt never, quell:
I will fly and thou pursue:
Night and morn the flight renew.’

‘Poor, pale, pitiable form
That I follow in a storm;
Iron tears and groans of lead
Bind around my aching head.

‘Till I turn from Female love
And root up the Infernal Grove,
I shall never worthy be
To step into Eternity.

‘And, to end thy cruel mocks,
Annihilate thee on the rocks,
And another form create
To be subservient to my fate.

‘Let us agree to give up love,
And root up the Infernal Grove;
Then shall we return and see
The worlds of happy Eternity.

‘And throughout all Eternity
I forgive you, you forgive me.
As our dear Redeemer said:
“This the Wine, and this the Bread.”’

William Blake



My favorite passages

‘O’er my sins thou sit and moan:
Hast thou no sins of thy own?
O’er my sins thou sit and weep,
And lull thy own sins fast asleep.

‘What transgressions I commit
Are for thy transgressions fit.
They thy harlots, thou their slave;
And my bed becomes their grave.

All time favorite lines


‘And throughout all Eternity
I forgive you, you forgive me.
As our dear Redeemer said:
“This the Wine, and this the Bread


Also featured in my favorite movie: The Heart of Me

Something Fairly Efficient I Think

I love my Kindle. Its not only can be the biggest library ever it has text to speech. So I can listen to certain books when I don't want to read or am doing something else. Like now for instance I'm multitasking. I'm listening to a time efficiency book while typing this blog. Keeping two new years resolutions at once.
I'm reading or rather listening to Eat That Frog. Its a very good book. I like self help books not because I need to drastically change my life or haven't heard most of these things already but because they offer new tips, tricks and generally remind me of things I know to help.
I have morning pages to write now. My morning pages are a mind dump that helps the subconscious mind go through everything they are thinking. It makes you choose whats important to you in your creative life and come up with ideas you may have not thought of. I thought it was crap at first but spending a full fifteen minuets on it you start to reach for things to write about and you come up with some pretty interesting things to fill the pages. You have to write for a fairly long period of time so you get everything out and you can move on to things that you grasp for from the subconscious mind. You need to write it longhand on paper. But alas I don't have a notebook now and I need to keep the pages in the same place so I have another private blog right now until I can afford to get a 'nice' notebook.

<3 Lady of the Tide Pool

Song of the Day: Better Together by Jack Johnson efficient

Pandora's Box and Other Crazy People

Listening to Pandora Radio. If you haven't heard of it look it up. Its a radio where you pick a song or band. Then they match the style of the artist or the tone of the song and play artists and songs like it. Pretty damn sweet.
As for the other crazy people I'm giving a big vote of crazy to the designers of Call of Duty: Modern Warfare for the wii. Rented it last night it made me soo dizzy! It was hard to control and had annoying timers. All I wanted to do was play my first person shooter and actually shoot stuff! Left 4 Dead 2 However seems to be a good outlet for shooting stuff (On the computer of course). Zombies! Just an old fashioned FPS (First person shooter) with a few fun complications. Besides there is a co op where we play missions with our friends and a V.S. mode we play if we have more than 6 friends who want to play. Very fun.
There is my rant on FPS.
<3 Lady of the Tide Pool

Sleepless in Colorado

Can't sleep. A little depressed because of my lack of imagination at this point. My keyboard needs a cleaning. Headache. Need to clean my house. Random thoughts.

Late Night Broadcasting

Late night. Writing. Eric locked Anastasia out of the room and when we let her back in she ran straight for me. Awh. Damn it I was going to write a blog about world peace and my discovery to enable it to become a reality... but I got really tired just now so...

<3 Lady of the Tide Pool

Song of the Day: Why Does It Always Rain On Me By Travis

Mood: Sleepy

Vanity and Other Deadly Sins

I got a new vanity today. Yay! It makes organization much easier and looks pretty in my room. We made it from an idea of Martha Stewart's.
Ive been writing a lot lately which is good. I'm trying to add more depth to the book. Still need to clean make up brushes and such.
I had a long night last night everything from frightening stairs to hanging out with Siena and then my sister. I wish I had something more interesting to say. You know something that makes you laugh and think I am extremely funny. No such luck.
So I will leave you with a word of wisdom.
BUBBLES!
<3 Lady of the Tide Pool
Song of the day: Sometime Around Midnight By Airborne Toxic Event

Face the Dawn

Hello Duckies!
Have you given up yet? No I didn't think so. Alas we have one more day of delusion to go. Enjoy it. Feel good about yourself today and tomorrow when many of you like me hit the cookies just remember its okay. Haha Social Experiments for the win. Tell me tomorrow if you kept them.